Haunted....
It has haunted my life all these while, the entire time.......it just fails to go away, to vanish, to disappear.....
It has made my life a total disaster all the time, self-consciousness, an absolute weapon to kill my level of confidence, hurt physically and also emotionally.......
Why you just never go away? How can't you haunt my life all this time? You are only making me suffocated and desperated......
I just wish i will not see you anymore.....
Here, 'it @ you' referred to as ...... P-I-M-P-L-E-S!!!!!!
Because of you, i felt self-conscious whenever and wherever i am, be it in front of all my friends, or among the crowds on the street.... i don't know how to face my friends and the people around, i just too care about how people will think of me, and how they will say about it, when i look into the mirror, i born to hate myself, therefore, i need to apply make up to conceal you!....T_T
Because of you, my level of confidence are killed, almost to a NIL sometimes...... T_T
Because of you, i always feel the undesired pain on my face, everywhere it grows, everywhere i feel the disgusted pain! the inflammation, the redness, the cyst....... so horrible it left me totally suffocating! T_T
Because of you, i spent lots of money in order to cure you...hoping you will leave me alone one day....but you are NOT, but exaggerate my situation. How could you??? T_T
Today, 30th day of September, 2009~ because of you, today has become a very memorable day to remember.....
I went to consult the skin specialist, Dr. Wong to undergo a blood test at 8am early in the morning as appointed by doctor yesterday.My dearest mom accompanied me along. I was told by
doctor that i was having severe type of pimples disease currently, which indicated the last degree of severeness of pimples! Oh my God! I was totally flabbergasted when i was told so. I could not believe that my pimples were that severe....! Luckily, the doctor told me there was a cure for it, but it takes a longer time to cure, and with a level of discipline and medicine prescription, it only will work.
It was right now, i was lying on the bed in the clinic room, the doctor came over and tied a piece of cloth around my right arm. I was extremely scared and nervous as i never undergo blood test before. He asked me to cough twice. When i coughed, he already poked the syringe into my right arm and pumped out the blood in a small bottle-size syringe!! hohoho, that 2 coughs were merely a distraction! So smart la the doctor! hiak hiak hiak
I also underwent a urinary test. Everything's went on smooth. Medical report was out on 11.30am, as told by doctor that everything's fine. Thanks God!
Afterwards, i was prescribed with lots of medicine which need to be consumed as well as applied externally. walao eh!! the whole consultation, blood test and medical fee cost RM678. Oh My God! It was so damn expensive like hell! I felt guilty and sad that my mom had to spent such large sum of money on my medical fee, just because of the stupid pimples which caused me to be in such situation. Haizzzzz
Last but not least, my only wish for now and always, wish IT will get out of my life! I don't wanna see you anymore!!!
~cath~n_n
It has haunted my life all these while, the entire time.......it just fails to go away, to vanish, to disappear.....
It has made my life a total disaster all the time, self-consciousness, an absolute weapon to kill my level of confidence, hurt physically and also emotionally.......
Why you just never go away? How can't you haunt my life all this time? You are only making me suffocated and desperated......
I just wish i will not see you anymore.....
Here, 'it @ you' referred to as ...... P-I-M-P-L-E-S!!!!!!
Because of you, i felt self-conscious whenever and wherever i am, be it in front of all my friends, or among the crowds on the street.... i don't know how to face my friends and the people around, i just too care about how people will think of me, and how they will say about it, when i look into the mirror, i born to hate myself, therefore, i need to apply make up to conceal you!....T_T
Because of you, my level of confidence are killed, almost to a NIL sometimes...... T_T
Because of you, i always feel the undesired pain on my face, everywhere it grows, everywhere i feel the disgusted pain! the inflammation, the redness, the cyst....... so horrible it left me totally suffocating! T_T
Because of you, i spent lots of money in order to cure you...hoping you will leave me alone one day....but you are NOT, but exaggerate my situation. How could you??? T_T
Today, 30th day of September, 2009~ because of you, today has become a very memorable day to remember.....
I went to consult the skin specialist, Dr. Wong to undergo a blood test at 8am early in the morning as appointed by doctor yesterday.My dearest mom accompanied me along. I was told by
doctor that i was having severe type of pimples disease currently, which indicated the last degree of severeness of pimples! Oh my God! I was totally flabbergasted when i was told so. I could not believe that my pimples were that severe....! Luckily, the doctor told me there was a cure for it, but it takes a longer time to cure, and with a level of discipline and medicine prescription, it only will work.
It was right now, i was lying on the bed in the clinic room, the doctor came over and tied a piece of cloth around my right arm. I was extremely scared and nervous as i never undergo blood test before. He asked me to cough twice. When i coughed, he already poked the syringe into my right arm and pumped out the blood in a small bottle-size syringe!! hohoho, that 2 coughs were merely a distraction! So smart la the doctor! hiak hiak hiak
I also underwent a urinary test. Everything's went on smooth. Medical report was out on 11.30am, as told by doctor that everything's fine. Thanks God!
Afterwards, i was prescribed with lots of medicine which need to be consumed as well as applied externally. walao eh!! the whole consultation, blood test and medical fee cost RM678. Oh My God! It was so damn expensive like hell! I felt guilty and sad that my mom had to spent such large sum of money on my medical fee, just because of the stupid pimples which caused me to be in such situation. Haizzzzz
Last but not least, my only wish for now and always, wish IT will get out of my life! I don't wanna see you anymore!!!
~cath~n_n
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