Growing up...Yeah!!

Yea, it's time to grow up!!!

Reminiscing back those unforgettable events which had happened to me in the earlier semesters during my diploma year really made me grew stronger and more mature in ways of thinking. There were lots of catchy experiences i have been through within these 2 wonderful years of diploma. For instance, happiness i share with my bunch of sisters i treasure very much. They ever appear in my life journey and have been together with me through thick and thin. i would like to grab this chance to show my appreciation for them, those VIPs are Yier, Lian Lian, Hwee Teng. They have made my life so much happier than ever before and how their unfaltering supports really bring my miserable soul back to the origin. Thanks, sisters!! i love you dearssss!

Besides that, there were also moments which left me suffocating in total despair and grieving sorrowfully. For instance, the friend whom i treasure very much in the 1st place has turned into someone who i barely could recognize! that is a total disaster for me! how could it be? am i insane or sth till i have such mindset? i actually witnessed and going through such miserable moments myself. i ever confront to such friend, telling her about her weaknesses nicely, hoping she could realize it and try to improve her attitude and character. however, to my dismay, she did not but turn out to shoot me back with stupid reasons unsatisfactorily. i was totally flabbergasted by the outcome and disappointment was what i felt intensely and getting so damn emotional. i almost got myself broke into tears but i did not coz i did not want myself appear to be so weak and useless. initially, i thought it was my fault or my personality problem. i was so damn worried about myself. however, as life went on, it was not so bad after all cuz i was told by lots of people about such issue!!! Oh My God!! i could not believe that God is on my side too! Suddenly, i found sparks of hope to pursue my lifetime journey and friendship with others who appreciate me and vice-versa. Thanks God for understanding me!! coz i thought to myself that i was not such a cruel and evil person after all...LOLzzzz

Furthermore, i have learnt heaps of useful enduring lessons to be applied in daily lifespan whereby i was taught to be stronger and more mature than before. Stop being a fool, being too naive, being too innocent, get smarter and brilliant and lots more... thanks for those who walked into my life to give me such disastrous experience for me to go through it!!!

Today is the last day of May, so all these grieveous events will end here. Cath will have her new beginning in the upcoming days. New level of study@ advance diploma, new beginning!!! yeah yeah! rock it!

Here I am!!

Here i am!!!

ohh, it suddenly reminded me of a song 'Here I am" by Peggy in Camp Rock movie... a very beautiful song for the soul who seeks inspiration and encouragement.

this is once a song which cheer me up when i am in the middle of struggling for supports and inspiration in order to go through everyday life... thanks to this song for inspired me to here so far...

today was my 1st day to write in my own 'catherine-avrilgurlzz' blog here... i'm starting to loving it!!! this might be another good place for me to express my feelings as well as stuff going on in my daily life, be it happiness, sadness, boredom, excitement and so on... these are what makes life so interesting and so memorable perhaps v tons of experience in it to make life greater!!!

well, at least, i'm gonna have a little introduction about myself first of all, im a little girl who was given this 'CATHERINE' name by my lovely parents, who had been through kindergarten, primary as well as secondary school like anyone else did, and currently i have just graduate with merit in my diploma...oh ya, im doing accouting course, sound kinda unbelievable a little i bit i guess, coz lots of ppl say my face doesn't match v the course im taking currently. haha...

besides that, i am very huge and crazy fan of Avril Lavigne, who inspires me the most all these years and played quite essential role in my life beside my parents and friends. Once, i am a girl with shattering confidence that i don't even dare to mix around with people as i was afraid, as there was a sense of fear inside which cause me to turn into introvert virtually til i found Avril's existence. Her songs started to inspire me and that was the moment when i start to regain my level of confidence in life to begin my journey. Yeah yeah!!! {the reason to my craziness about Avril} Hope those who wonder why i love her so much could know W-H-Y...LOLzzz

Lastly, i would like to dedicate this beautiful song 'HERE I AM' by Peggy:

They tell you a good girl is quiet,
that you should never ask why
Cause it only makes it harder to fit in
You should be happy, excited
Even if you're just invited
Cause the winners need someone to clap for them

It's so hard just waiting in a line that never moves
It's time you started making your own rules

[Chorus:]
You gotta scream until there's nothin' left
With your last breath
So here I am, here I am
Make'em listen
'Cause there is no way you'll be ignored
Not anymore
So here I am, here I am
Here I am
Here I am

You only get one life to work it, so who cares if it's not perfect
I say it's close enough to perfect for me
Why should you hide from the thunder, and the lightning that you're under
Cause there ain't nobody else you want to be

If how your living isn't working, there's one thing that will help
You gotta finally just stop searchin'
To find yourself

[Chorus]

The world better make some room
Yea move over, over
Cause your coming through
Cause your coming through

[Chorus]

Here I am